The arrival of Eric Cowell, the son of Simon Cowell, could not have come at a more opportune moment in the life of the America’s Got Talent judge.
Cowell, who is 64 years old, said in the most recent edition of The Diary of a CEO podcast, which was published on June 10, how his son, who was only ten years old at the time, was the one who rescued him at a difficult time in his life, which included the loss of his parents, Julie and Eric, as well as his life being absorbed by business. Cowell’s mother Julie passed away sixteen years after his father Eric, after whom his kid was called, in 1999. Eric was the father of Cowell’s son.
As the executive in the music business put it, “I think particularly when I lost my mother, I was on a downward spiral at that point.” As you are aware, I have lost both of my parents. I have lost everyone. That is now the finality. Everything I mentioned about the things I have in my possession, even the tangible items, was completely meaningless at that time.
Cowell said, “I was in a state of extreme dissatisfaction, I wasn’t particularly enjoying my work, and I just thought to myself, you know what, I’m just going to become a vampire then, and I would work until seven or eight o’clock in the morning.” There was a time when I would get up around two or three o’clock in the afternoon, and I found myself becoming hooked to that type of lifestyle. I just adored the level of intensity. It was almost as if I had to find something else to replace the void that I felt as a result of the loss that I had experienced. I told myself, “I’m just going to be a ridiculous workaholic, and even though I was very successful, I wasn’t happy. I really, really wasn’t happy.”
However, the television personality said that everything changed when he learned that his fiancee Lauren Silverman, whom he has been seeing since 2004, was expecting their first child. He added that this fact completely changed his perspective.
“When I received the phone from Lauren, which begins, any call that begins with, ‘Are you sitting down?’ I was immediately shocked. You are aware of what is the following step. It seemed to be asking, “Are you sitting down?” “Yes,” she said, “Well,” and then she informed me. To answer your question, yes, it did affect everything in my life. You are totally correct. “It brought back the joy that I had lost,” Cowell said to Steven Bartlett, the presenter of the podcast.
With regard to me, it was ideal since, as we were discussing before in the conversation about our childhoods, it was outstanding. Unbelievable. I can still vividly recall the first time I watched Jungle Book with him, and when I glance over, I can feel the sheer delight that he had while watching that film. “It was like, oh my God, I remember how I felt when I saw The Jungle Book,” he added. “It changed my life forever.”
In response to the topic of whether Eric “saved him,” Cowell said Eric, “Without question, without question.” In all honesty, I had arrived at the point where nothing was of any significance anymore. Even to the point where I just about have no recollection of everything that occurred during that time period.
It struck me so hard, and the most difficult part was also being on television at the same time… While I was here, I felt like a clown because I was dying on the inside,” he stated. “And yet, I’m still required to do what I’m being paid to do as well as I possibly can, but I’d put on a lot of weight, I was eating junk food, and if I had been hit by a bus the following day, well, I’d be de.ad, but I wasn’t worried about anything like that,” she said.
After that, Barlett, who is 31 years old, inquired about the judge of Britain’s Got Talent about his “darkest day” throughout that time period. In response, the judge said, “The entire time was dark.” “When people reach the lowest levels you possibly can, where it does not matter essentially that they are alive anymore, because you just go, ‘Well, what have I got to live for?'” I can totally connect to that feeling.
A question was posed by Bartlett, “Did you have those thoughts?”
“Yeah,” responded Cowell, before elaborating, “I’m not thinking that I want to take my own life, but I’m thinking that if something terrible happened, it wouldn’t bother me, to myself.”
A year ago, while speaking to PEOPLE, Simon Cowell expressed his delight in seeing his son’s “excited” expressions during the live tapings of America’s Got Talent.
He observed of Eric, “He’s a great barometer,” and he was right. “As I turn my head to look at him, I ask myself, ‘Is he having a good time?’ As he was sitting up on his seat, he was having a great time, and he was really enjoying himself. It is the nicest thing because when it comes to children, everything is completely unfiltered.